Suddenly-.-

Suddenly feel very sad..But i dont know why...Is it cause of you??Life is so miserable...Oh God,Please help me...bored+sad like hell...

Happy^^

Today,finally got some time to hang out with my promoter friends who work in Carefour,Jalan Peel,except for 3 aliens joining us...Haha...Took alot of pictures with my bestie,Candace,do alot of funny acts in Pavillion,Times..We go disturb Jia En..All take pictures together..So miss all the times together back then.Seriously very miss you guys^^MIss my sweetie jia en cold jokes..Haha..Anyway today sing k not bad laits just i dunno how to sing some of those chinese songs only...haha..But have fun anyway,then meet other promoters from Carefour,Ampang..Took pic together^^happy happy^^

So cute

You are extremely so so so cute...Haha...Thanks for accompany me to work...Seriously very appreciate it..Wont forget your funny face when forcing yourself to swallow that yucky stuff...Haha..

So disappointed

BQBK why do you wanna treat me like this?Why cant you just come out facing me alone?Are you scare that i will keep on pulling your sleeve and call you to want me back?Are you afraid that i will keep on crying and begging you to come back?Please stop daydreaming man,eventhough i still have feelings for you doesnt mean i will go and make myself a fool for 2nd time.

Seriously i do have feelings when you brought along those freaking biatch when you came to me.You make me cry again thinking of you.Cant you just give me some peaceful life?I seriously can stop crying because of you already,but why you wanna make me cry back?Why?If i cry will that make you more happier??

Seriously you are such a jerk.No,you are far more worst than a jerk.A fucking asshole is more suitable for you.

Where is all your promises you made to me when we broke up that day??Friends?Come to me immediately when i'm having trouble?Still care for me?Did you do either one??No.Are you just trying to lie me to make me feel more better??

I'm seriously such a dumbass fucking bitch to even trust at all your words.You really broke my heart.My heart is already in such a pain,and now you came to me and stab another fucking knife into my heart.Anyway i still have to say thanks to you,to let me know how a hypocrit you are,i will be more careful in the future for not to fall for a fucking asshole like you.Thanks for every wonderful memory you gave me.

Thanks for all my friends who accompany me on that day.Very appreciate it.

Regret

Yesterday is Lydia birthday.we all planning to suprise her..But it came out mostly the guys oso late-.-Anyway seriously hope u like everything girl^^

Then suddenly the jerk message me..I was so regret when i send jerk to him,when i suppose to send it to my friend.Seriously that time i totally freeze already.My mind totally blank,i dont even know what to say or do.This Michelle just keep laughing behind me...So bad-.-

Then he return the calculator to me.He say he at outside,but when i go out,his friend waiting for me at outside.Why??Why cant you comt out and meet me??Are you scare?

Whole day of mine is like so miserable+anger+sad+regret+dying..Why you want to make me feel this way??

Finish class that time,6 of us,Calvin,Kevin,Lydia,Me,Kit,and Seng hoe go to pyramid to celebrate Lydia birthday,then in the end left 4 of us cause Kevin and Seng hoe still got class.So boring,some more Kit and Lydia so sweet everytime,make Calvin and me so emo...Haha...Then i bought a extremely cute stuff.So damn damn damn cute...^^

Quotes

I Cry For The Times That You Were Almost Mine,
I Cry For The Memories I've Left Behind,
I Cry For The Pain, The Lost, The Old, the New..
I Now Cry For The Times I Thought I Had You.

Love isn't blind, it just only sees what matters.
Love is a moment that lasts forever...

You will know the real meaning of love when you fall in love.

If a tear fell from my eyes,
everytime i wished you were with meI would have a puddle of fallen wishes at my feet.

Through the wind I hear your voice, in the clouds I see your name.

Living life without you just wouldnt be the same

If you love someone more than anything,
Then distance only matters to the mind,
not to the heart.

If i had a single flower for everytime i thought of you, i could walk forever in my garden.

Dead

Oh my god,first time have exam for account.So damn freaking hard,also dont know who create account-.-Luckily the test got 20 objective questions if not i sure dead meat.Sit there for like 1 hour,waste my time-.-Look at the paper also already feel like sleeping already...Seriously i really not suitable for accounts.Seriously going to drop account for the next semester-.-After exam reach home still got tons of homework havent do..Tomorrow still have to pass up-.-So shit

Ngek NgekXD

This title i also dont know want to write for what the,but my friend say all of our friends name also appear in my blog only his name don't have so now i have to write a blog with his name in it.I got this friend meet in college,very funny his name call Shorty Low Kin Kit...muahahaha...Calvin teach..This guy le,first time see him,he like very cool and kinda boastful type,i remember i was in the same english group with him for the first time we have english class,we have to draw and explain,this Kit hardly even talk,so cool,but still in the end only i realise he kinda cool and kinda sweet la,he still care about his friend,still manage to make me smile when i'm crying,listen to me when i talk.I really appreciate him as my friend.So Kit,jia you wor^^ ngek ngek xD you sure know what i want to say wan,dont shy shy okie??hahahahhaha....wish you luck man^^

Opps...

Today 7.30 also reach class le,i'm the first person at there,as usual i start to think back the time me and him together,how we spend time together in the class,how i will prepare breakfast for him,and watch him finish up the breakfast.At that moment,really feel like go and find him although he told me he maybe not coming to school,luckily my friend Lydia reach on time,and stop me from looking for him,instead of go finding him i go down to the cafeteria with her,and saw her friend there,get to know a new guy la,name Richard also-.-haha,but quite funny la they all...Haiz,today no more 4 hours break already...So boring err...The teacher so fast come bak-.-Today so unlucky,give the teh tarik spilt on my shirt,and me and Lydia are late for class-.-Unlucky...If not cause change class suddenly then we also wont get lost and late for class-.-Today dont know should say is unlucky or lucky day,anyway when i feeling bad that time,suddenly i get an apple balloon^^so so so so cute de baloon...small small...haha...Then today meet my msn/fs friend,known each other also got quite some time le i think,today finally meet for the first time,kinda scare la actually,scare nothing to say all,but in the end also okie la,he quite funny also la..haha..Then when reaching my house that time,i remember last time he tell me about his love life,and i'm so sorry towards him cause make him have to think back all the sad stuff...Feel so guilty...I'm sorry..Haiz,tomorrow got Account test ah...shit la,after so many classes i attend for the account i dont even know what i'm learning,some more tomorrow wanna test,sure dead...I feel so lazy wanna go do revision...Now still got time write blog,tomorrow seriously die...haha...

p/s:The balloon dont like apple...haha

Funny^^

Today as usual very boring,very tire need to wake up so early to go to college.Today in class very very boring,all my friends also almost fall asleep,then i miss call my friends,they all keep say i very "mou liu",but what to do,i seriously boring till wanna die already.Then Lydia one of my friend say go for Kevin,then i feel very funny,then i go ask him,hei Kevin do you have girlfriend?Then he say no,why?Then i ask him do you mind if i wanna chase you?Then he laugh,haha,really?Seriously i dont mind he say.Then i disturb another guy,i ask him does he have gf?then i also say do you mind if i wanna chase you,then he say i dont mind you chase then i run la...haha...So cute..Then i keep telling them i'm serious you know...haha...Then break that time our FIA teacher birthday so all of the FIA students sing birthday song for her,she so touched and cry...Then i saw my friend Neco,then she ask me,you yao dint eat rice ah?you look thin already,then i just no la,just berak up is like that...haha...so funny,then after done sing songs,6 of us,me,Myra,Amelia,Kevin,Calvin, and Lydia go for branch.At first i thought i will met HIM at the restaurant there,cause he usually will hang out at there with his friends when he break that time.But so sad,i dont see any sign of him,abit disappointed.Then Lydia ask me what i wanna eat,and i say i dont want to eat,i dont feel like eating because of the break up i really dont have any appetite at all,i already dint eat rice for like 2 weeks+,and Lydia ask me why i wanna torture myself like that,dont torture myself like that,then i seriously dont feel like eating,then she start to emo,and don wanna talk to me,and i dunno why.Then i ask Amelia and Calvin do you know why Lydia suddenly so moody,and they say dont know.Then after the branch,Lydia,Myra and Kevin went to the library while me,Calvin and Amelia go to the cafeteria there.At first i thought maybe i will meet him there since he dint go to the restaurant there,but still the same,he's not at there.Then we sit down chat chat then i keep still thinking what happen to Lydia why she suddenly look so mad,then at 12.30 i have account class,so i decided to ask her what happen.Then when 3 of us walking to class that time,i suddenly feel like going to HIS class to look for him,although i dont know which class his in,but i still feel like going to look for him,but until half way,then i stop myself,and i ask myself,for what i still wanna look for him after all the things i been through??HIS heart is not with me anymore,so me and my friend turn back,and walk to our account class.I sit there and wait for Lydia.When she walk in she sit down then at first she dint talk to me,then i ask her,Lydia,why you suddenly angry me?Why?Then she finally say,last time she got a friend also torture herself like that,her friend dont wanna eat,den cut her wrist,and finally the girl commit suicide,then she say she angry at me,cause she dont want me to follow her friend step,she say in the end you happy but who will sad for you?your parents will sad.When i listen to all her words i feel so touch,cause she very care about me,feel like crying...haha...Today seriously are a very interesting day...haha^^

Miserable

Today is such a boring day,but of course for me everyday is a boring day after the break up.Stuck at home nothing to do,make me cant stop thinking about him.The third day of our break up,as usual,i'm stuck at home ironing shirts,i keep thinking about him until i dont realise that actually my hand already touch the hot iron-.-Such a clumsy people.At that moment,i feel like message him telling him,but then only i realise that,i'm not he who anymore.I just hold my hand and bare the pain in my heart and on my hand alone.I quickly run to my room and lock myself inside ad start to cry.How much i wish you were there beside me.But i know all those thing is impossible and is not going to happen anymore.I also dont know how many times i cried for this.Every night i will cry myself to sleep,when the next morning i wake up,think of you,and my tears will start forming in my eyes again.Really really feel so miserable,even when i'm at work,the "Kak" ask me where's my bf,i just can hold back my tears and reply "we break already".When i'm working that time i'm really tire of putting a fake smile on my face,i just feel like squad down and cried out loud,cried out everything that's kept in my heart.But no matter how much or how many times i cried my tears wont come to an end,because my heart told me that this time i'm seriously in love with you.Now no matter what i say or what i do is no use anymore,since you already made up your mind,i'm seriously seriously seriously going to let you go.